In case you missed it, my latest book, The Girl Without Magic was released last week.
This is the part where I’m supposed to say how grateful I am and how lucky I am to have such a wonderful publisher, and how thrilling it is to have people read my words.
All of that is true, but this is Life Beyond Exaggeration, not my author website, so here’s the messy part of it.
Being an author isn’t always fun. I actually thought about it, and if I gave up writing, I could get masters degree. I would have time to do the school work and time to earn the money to pay my tuition. If I didn’t write, I could be a really great ukulele player, have a six pack, have watched everything on Netflix everyone tells me I should watch. There is so much I could do with my time and my life if I just stopped writing! It’s maddening!
And that’s what I spent my joyous release day thinking about. In a burrito of blankets. Binging on cool ranch Doritos. There were a lot of things that led to this highly attractive moment.
Amazon being screwy and not posting the book for many hours so I was panicking that it would never go up.
Important people not answering my emails when I needed them to.
People in my non-author life treating my writing like a side hobby that should hold no sway over my schedule and should be dismissed when it becomes inconvenient for them.
The never-ending self doubt because no one will read my books and, even if they do, won’t leave a good review.
Then I decided. I was done. No more writing. Fulfill the commitments I currently have contracts for and then be done. (more…)